This is one of those questions that can be a very sensitive topic for many people.
Who is God? Or better yet, What is God?
I know for me, the meaning of this question has changed quite profoundly in the past few years.
Like many in the west, I seemed to have this notion of a judging, watchful, man in the sky who would dole out punishment to those who did “wrong” and help those who did “right”.
I can understand when people question “if there even is a God” or reject the ideas that were handed down to them earlier in life.
What is God?
For one thing, God is subjective; a little different to each person. To some it is a silly fantasy, while to others, a lifelong companion.
For most of Western man’s history, the way to know God was through a middleman – a priest, rabbi, or otherwise holyman.
For the average person, the experience of God was just not a possibility, let alone a part of their life.
Because of this setup, most men had to rely on their designated holy man to guide them in spiritual matters.
Of course, in their humanness, there were some who misunderstood or misused their position and overtime this notion of God became a mixed bag of ideas, agendas, misunderstandings, and wisdom.
Soon a dogma formed around “God” and many positionalities became entrenched in some of the organizations and people.
(A dogma, in my opinion, is a strict adherence to an idea of which the person does not have any direct experience regarding. A positionality is the state in which a perspective is skewed to one polarity, or side, of the mind, which blocks out a large, opposing, part of reality).
Fast forward to today and we see a new definition of “God”. As we stop relying on outside sources to tell us what our own personal spirituality is, we begin to take our power back.
No longer is God an idea or a belief system…rather God becomes a direct experience.
What is God?
To me, when I sit quietly, close my eyes and calm my mind, I allow my awareness to fade out. I let all that is going on in the world drift out of my mind and I become open.
Soon I feel a presence, a feeling within me yet also encompassing me. I feel a connection, a communion is you will, with an intelligent field of pure love engolfing my being.
My awareness extends beyond my personal self and I begin to feel as if I am going up, not up as “in to the sky” but more “back” as if I were drifting out of this dimension of existence.
In these moments, it feels as though all is well, and a powerful peace encompasses my awareness. I feel a deep and personal love; a 2 way love going out and coming in.
I am the giver and the receiver all at once.
Waves of blissful energy pulsate through my body and for a moment, I am home.
Then I return to my world, but this time, I bring more of that loving state of peace with me.
And every once in a while, during my day to day life, I will run into someone who says “God doesn’t exist” or who “Isn’t sure about God”.
And I smile, knowing that they are really just releasing an outdated concept; a belief system.
I know that as they search for their own truth, they will come to experience that same presence as I have.
With this awareness, there is no longer any question about it. There is nothing for me to argue or defend. Instead, I just allow…and trust.
All IS well.
I know that this question of “what is God” is a reflection of our relationship with our own inner masculine energy.
Do we deny it? Or do we realize our own true nature?
I know that as our culture finds what true masculine power is and begins to heal it, it will come face to face with this question of “What is God”.
For God is the ultimate masculine, the unmanifest, the silent presence…”The Father”.
As we heal our relationshiop with God, through direct experience, we begin to integrate true masculine power.
As we do that, we also begin to integrate our deepest purpose and, simultaneously, start to live from our authentic, loving, and joyful Self.