I’ve been avoiding your blog for a few months (lol, wow, “avoiding” is an honest word there that brought my tears), and now i’m working backward. It’s funny how it works out, cuz i’ve actually been observing “craving” lately… what i found is that i judge myself for trying to let it go, cuz the voices of craving says i need to crave.

Maybe this is the reason you gave up most of media. For me, I got these two conflicting voices in me all the time. Your description is briliant: calling is so much fainter, but all pervasive; craving is strong and violent, but extremely localized. As I’m writing this, I’m beginning to realize that maybe another way out of craving is to be feeling your whole body.

For example, I’ve been dealing with a neediness for hot women for a year (by that, I mean I’ve noticed it to be a neediness a year ago). It prevents me from committing to my current relationship fully, and MORE IMPORTANTLY, it prevents me from experiencing my current relationship fully.

I’ve gone through a period of releasing past couple of months. My relationship magically got better – by that, i mean both me AND my girlfriend evolved. It was intense, nightmares after nightmares kind of intense, but it was fulfilling when I pulled through (I think I did).

Anyways, just wanted to share after reading the post =-)

I read somewhere “A man who looks outside dreams, a man who looks within awakens”. I think the world around us largely makes us dream or “crave” as you call it. You look at a car and you want to possess it. You look at a hot chick and you want to possess her. You look at what is traditionally referred to as “success” and want to be successful in the traditional sense of the term. But the needs of the soul can be only figured by looking within.

But looking within is not easy. You have to peel through layers of your own self. It is not an overnight process. The peeling seems to happen only when you chase whatever you “crave” for, get it, and feel somewhat disillusioned I could be wrong here, but I think it is important to yield to the craving because the disillusionment that results draws you closer to your calling. If there is an easier way, I’d love to try it!

Not what you have, but what you use;
Not what you see, but what you choose;
Not what seems fair, but what is true;
Not what you dream, but what you do;
Not what you take, but what you give;
Not as you pray, but as you live.
These are the things that mar or bless
The sum of human happiness.
- Anon